My Final Blog
by Danny Casler
My heart hurts so bad right now. We just said our goodbyes. I really hate goodbyes. My nose is runny and I’ve got tears in my eyes. Leaving Micha was one of the hardest things I’ve done in a very long time. It’s not because I feel sorry for him because of his circumstance. It’s because I love him truly like a brother and it hurts by soul to have to leave him behind.
I just feel helpless. I feel so much pain that my heart can barely contain itself. If God blessed me with anything beyond all my faults he surely blessed me with the ability to love. If I learned anything in my short life it’s that love is more powerful than any drug, any material item, it’s more pure than gold and it truly is strong enough to move mountains. Especially the ones that sometimes stand inbetween what’s right and wrong in by life.
I sometimes feel overwhelmed that I’ll never be able to conquer and climb those mountains in my life but I am always deferred to God’s love.
If I am unable to climb, he shows me a way around. If I am unable to go around he gives me the strength to climb.
I just pray that gives my Micha and all the orphans I have come into contact these same blessing because I know he knows their hearts. Their true desires. I also pray for my brothers and sisters who are not without a family but maybe without something their life that’s holding them back from the bigger picture in life.
I have a broken heart right now but my spirit and faith is continuously unwaivering. I know that by breaking my heart over and over again in all I do I am continuously being humbled over and over. If I go thru life as an ignorant fool, a stone, cold and without remorse, than I will have learned nothing at all. I won’t know what it’s like to have faith, I won’t know humility, I won’t know honor, trust and ultimately… Love.
John Lennon wrote “all you need is love”. However God inspired that thought and set it in his heart to put on a paper with a pen and that become one of those most powerful songs of all time. The point is I guess, without love we really are useless piles of bones and organs beating aimlessly without purpose decorated in skin and hair to either hide or enhance our innermost core workings. I think as I am growing as a man, and as a God loving boy, and boy only by the way that I want to always love without my past hurts, I want my love to always be fresh and sincere, but I want my innermost workings to show in all I do, and in all I am from the inside out.
