A Life of Purpose
by Danny Casler
So we honestly have been so busy that blogging has been secondary to working and keeping spirits up. I admit I am more of the cheerleader then the back breaking worker. Ive done my fair share of work but I feel in a way that I have been called to be a brother to Micha more than anything so in a sense I am working but in a more spiritual, human to human type of way. Sometimes I have felt in the way with the crew but only cause Im coughing a lot from being sick and the dust and junk in the air makes me hate being in the room haha.
Anyhow, yesterday my Micha was up early to have morning devotion with us and learn more about god. I have not talked to him about god not because its not important but because I approach everyone and everything with LOVE first because that is what I have been blessed to do. Love people. Love life, and appreciate that without love, life is dark and with love comes understanding and the willingness to want more, to know more, to then LOVE more.
So I think by just showing brotherly love to Micha and being a shoulder to him he has come to see a side of me that he wants to know more about. Maybe he is wondering why I am so loving to him, or why I care about him, or his story? I don¹t know. I just know that the connection even without words is genuine.
It was solidified as I was walking with the boys to town and he was walking back and I guess I ruined his surprise because he just handed me a box with a beautiful knife in it. It turns out, he went to down because he was leaving for the weekend and wanted to give me a gift. It really moved me. An orphan took what little money he had to give me a gift. That¹s genuine, when you have little but give because your soul calls for it. That¹s Christ like and moments like that are the little things I live for.
I came back to the orphanage and I started to make him a beaded bracelet. Before I could even give it to him he had made me one! I am like ³damn this kid is beating me with the gift giving haha² He then went and got me some chocolate and then bought me some candy. Then he made me another bracelet!
Love is a great thing and some people just don¹t understand how important it is to show one another love. I may never see Micha again, and I may, but when I leave here I know that I wont feel that I didn¹t give my heart to this trip and to this kid and to the reason why god brought me here in the first place.
As we are starting to finish up our rooms, the wallpaper has dried, the paint has settled in the first room, the floors are being set to be laid down and the days till we leave our counting down. It makes me wonder when I will be back here, IF I will be called back here. I hope so. I hope I get to see Micha again. I know its early but he is gone for the weekend and not seeing him throughout the day is weird ha. Anyhow, few more days left. Looking forward to seeing this finished big time. I am selfishly looking forward to getting home to Hawaii because I think my heart, my soul, my body and my mind need to decompress from the last trip and it never got too, and now I have this trip already in motion and altho this is great and we are doing something amazing, it is emotionally tolling. For the last month straight almost I have been a missionary so my body is not in a stable safe zone, nor is my soul or my mind. Then again, if our lives were always safe, if we were always in the comforts of our surroundings, we would never really appreciate what it means to be hungry, to be tired, to need a hug, to have warm water and ultimately to feel loved. So for all these things I am eternally grateful and honored to live a life of purpose that allows me to see things thru a much clearer set of lenses than I used to.
